I shall not....

People around me always think that I am kinda happy-go-lucky type of person, actually I doubt most of the time. It's not to say I am pretending, only part of me.

I just can't believe things that are too beautiful to be seen, too nice to be in it, too wonderful to have it, that is why I doubt and find a 'balance'; that is sad, in my thought, I used to prepare myself anything bad could happen, to prepare myself from falling too hard. Shall I? Do I have to?

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Pastor Ban Chuan shared about this in the morning service: Letting your spouse loves God 100% and your spouse will love you 100%, if allow your spouse loves God 50%, then he only loves you 50%.

In applying this point to my doubt.... I receive half if I only half believing in a good friendship....

During the end worshiping session, these verses came to my mind, I hurried jotted down in the note book:

I shall not doubt your friendship, I believe everyone is learning to give, including me.

I shall not fear, I believe I will receive all when my heart is wide open.

I shall not judge, I believe you are beauty when I accept you are you.

I shall not worry, I believe you are the one God chooses to put in my life, same as I am in yours.

Fear, doubt, judgement and worry robbed me of the greatest blessing.

God says:

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.   Isaiah 43:2

God, You are beautiful beyond description.

Amen for this.