So what?

Yes, I know, I've walked through this path, I chose to walk away, I chose to hide from God, I chose not to talk to Him, I chose not to listen to Him....

You might have these thoughts:
"I took granted from God's love, I am not worthy to be loved since I have chosen to do these to shame Him,  "

"I have tasted His greatness, and yet walked astray, I ought to have punishment. "

and so on.... and on .... and on.... that just keep you STILL away from Him.

How?

Be it 'take for granted', be it 'I'm not worth it', be it 'I am fooling God', be it 'I am shameful to face Him again!'. Do you think God doesn't know about it?  Do you think God will look at you in another 'coloured specs'? Do you think God will send punishment onto you?

Don't be fooled, God doesn't send punishment, those punishments are the consequences from the wrong choice we've made. But if you turn to God right away, don't be silly, punishment will not disappear, but God will strengthen you, will walk with you through this, and will grant you wisdom to solve them. Lift up your eyes, and you will see He is just there all the time!

"Come now, let us settle the matter," says the LORD. "though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool." Isiah 1:18

If I will have to choose to listen, I rather choose to listen to His Word than anything from my mind or others who stumble me, who puts me ashamed, who gives no hope for my future, who make me believe that I am worthless, weak and make myself believe that I am taking God for granted. Confess, "Yes I was, so what? But now I am not!" Come back to Him, follow Him, He will guide you and comfort you.

I like this psalm, hope it reminds you to focus on God's greatness, mercy and steadfast love.

"I lift up my eyes to the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip, he who watches over you will not slumber, indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you- the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore."