Do not trap in the past

There is nothing stay unchanged,
there is nothing stay the same,
there is nothing you could hold on to,
there is nothing you could do but 'change'.


Blessed is the one who have found THE ONE who is THE SAME YESTERDAY, TODAY AND FOREVER.


Read this poem, is referring something that was once beautiful and pure, but cannot remain so, also provide a unique insight to one of the many cycle's of life through nature.

Nothing Gold Can Stay

by Robert Frost

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

It was first published in The Yale Review in 1923

Poetry analysis by Noleen Wyatt-Jones

The poem opens with a paradox Green is gold' green being the accepted first sign of spring but in New England where the birch and willow proliferate it is gold not green that signifies new growth and burgeoning life. He goes on to introduce another paradox Leaf's a flower' which refers to the initial perception of the unfurling leaf resembling a flower almost as if the leaf were disguising itself. There is also a sense that both are metaphors for the quick change of life in that the gold becomes green and the leaf becomes a flower in much the same way as we grow and change. There is a tangible sense of melancholy which accompanies each change and again as in life the sense that we often hark back enviously to what was once before.

The underlying theme seems to be prompting an acceptance that in life nothing can ever stay the same and that change is therefore inevitable in the circle of life. Keeping that theme in mind then the next logical step is the begin of decay as posed by the line So Eden sank to grief' which leads us to the Bible and the story of Adam and Eve who were given everything by God and should have been able to live a life of perfection in Eden but as with so many things perfection does not exist and this fits perfectly with Frost's continuing journey. So dawn goes down today' is the final metaphor used to define the final stage of the life cycle and in natures case this refers to the autumnal fall of leaves.

There is of course inevitability to each of the stages and whilst the sense of melancholy for each passing stage exists there is still a sense of hope. Frost is encouraging us to accept that each part of our life will pass far too quickly and we need to cherish each part before we embark on the next. It also makes us think about the fragility of human existence and the fact that perfection is not a realistic concept.

Hey! Friends out there..... I am fine

Recent posts sounded low and sad right?

Don't worry, I am totally fine, see... my smile! It was taken after a Hospital Visit, great lunch with my cousin - Elaine.

Shared some of my thoughts with her and 'spiritual mother' in home group last night, feel good to be weak sometimes, from here you'll find that there are friends around loving me and caring for me.

Such long time ever since I became a home group leader, not many times that having friends prayed for me.

Remembered the time where I was just a baby Christian, most of the times were people praying for me, hmm... now I know, some of the leader do need prayer.

Real thing is, I am not that low and weak, in fact my daily live still going well and happy, having fun with Gabriel, shared a joke with him this morning, both of us laughed till we teared out, I told him the secret in his name, now he knows the secret.....

Still very productive, means, still working, eating, helping, searching, training, cleaning, laughing, singing, playing...; Friends, don't worry, I have a good spirit, mind you for that!

Runaway Prayer

Do you know what does it mean? We've watched the movie 'Runaway Bride', I think my situation is like this movie, but mine is 'Runaway Prayer'....

As a christian, as a strong faith christian, this is happening to me, something has gone very very very wrong.....

We've been taught to put everything into prayer, everything means ... everything lah, everything in your daily life, and God means so real to me, me and HIM having intimacy relationship through years, and I love the relationship, we chat in most of the issues, all the circumstances, at any time, until up to the stage, His present has scared me, let me put it this way, I heard His voice, that I can't believe that I am so blessed, and loved by Him, which I always think I am not worthy, I am not 'holy'... and yet He listens to me and talks to me.

And so I pray very often, my type of prayer is not long and formal, my type of prayer is just like 'talking' to a friend, I challenge Him someimes, awesome is, He answers.

So... come back to this issue, I stopped because I don't want to know, and I have given up, and I ignore it, and I don't want to hear the 'word' any more, not the 'word' any more..... this 'word' has driven me crazy, so I stopped praying, and I stopped thinking about it, and I ignored it.

How can I just ignore it.... Sunday sermon, the 'word' seemed to be so CLEAR and LOUD in my ears, and it went deep into my heart, and it recaping in my mind, and it wakes my spirit, I thought, I just ignore it again... so, I didn't 'remember' it on Sunday, on Monday... but this morning while I was reading, it popped up to remind me, the 'word'.

Despite of this, I will still want to choose to ignore it!


[Runaway Prayer] Cool?!

Only Heaven Knows...

Life is full of surprise

you would never know what is going to come

sometimes really out of your imagination

sometimes it does not come the way you wish

sometimes it gives you joy

sometimes it gives you sadness

sometimes it gives you hope

sometimes it fails you

Life is that simple

that

you think everything is in your hand

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human are just a tiny little spec in this universe

not until you realized it

in humility

you will find...

Let's Start Again

Though it ended up in a terrible way,
and it's never a pleasant experience.


But I will start it all over again,
not just trying to be optimistic,
there are lessons/theory I've learned,
and in this chapter of my life,
I am going to put into practice,
life is full of surprises,
a roller coaster!

Through a process of grieving.
And the most effective way of dealing with that process
is to admit to myself that I have feelings of pain...
before letting go of those feelings.

Facing painful feelings isn't always easy,
God is with me,
that makes it easier for me.

Thankful for friends that who care,
thankful for friends that who bear my nonsense,
I know why God put you in my life,
God loves us all.

Feelings

Learn to control your feelings

When we feel high, we have no problems. The problem comes only when

we feel low. No one wants to feel low. When one feels low, then the more

one tries to feel high, the more depressed he gets. This seems to be

the biggest problem. What is important about the feelings? They never

stay the same. Feelings are fluid. Feelings alter just in seconds. A

second you feel high and in the next you feel low and then again you

feel good. This continues in life. If we base our life on our

feelings, we will be ruined.

You feel good about something now and a little later you feel bad

about the same thing. Then those feelings change yet again. Have you

noticed feelings. Changing?

Many people are unaware of the nature of feelings. Everywhere you will

hear people say, "Follow your feelings, go by your feelings, do what

you feel like? etc., What will you do? Be independent? People

misinterpret! What does independence mean? They think it means

following your feelings. They think, "I do as I feel now, I do as I

feel tomorrow. I do as I feel the next day." Then there can be no

stability in life.

We are unhappy if we follow our feelings. When you feel low, jump into

the lowest. Be like water. That is your real nature, inside you, it is

like water. The coconut is the symbol of the whole human life. The

coconut has a husk. That is the environment. And water is the

innermost part. Your true nature is like water, fluid and not hard

inside. What is the nature of water? Humility, it always goes down.

Stiffness is the problem. Stiffness is ego.

Water can take any shape. Whatever glass you put it in, it will take

that shape. Water means acceptance of the present moment. You put

water in a bottle and it will take that shape. Our innermost being

agrees with nature. In water, the slightest movement makes ripples. It

is dynamic also. It is not simply acceptance with fatalism; it is

acceptance with motion, with dynamism, with readiness to jump to act.

A little shake, and the water is ready to jump up.

The ocean is the lowest. How has the ocean become and ocean? It has

accepted to be the lowest. Can there be anything lower or deeper than

an ocean? All rivers from the mountain tops flow down to the ocean.

The ocean is full. The humblest yet the greatest. If you agree to go

low when you don't feel good, you will become the richest person on

the earth. Have you ever loved your low feelings? You have always

fought with them.

When you don't feel high, just close your eyes and go into the low.

"Okay, today I shall agree with my low feelings and I shall go as low

as I can, without acting." Do not do any action but just agree. "Okay,

I am going down, down, down....." How far will you go down? You will

find the ocean there. You will start rising up in no time.

Depression and low feelings cannot touch you. They can do nothing to

you. However big the clouds are, they cannot overshadow the sun. It

could be the darkest day, but still it will remain a day. All the

clouds can never make the day a night.

So, when clouds are there, you don't have to shiver. Just go deep,

observe and you will see a lot of sensations rising up. Some fears

come up. What is fear? Just a sensation in the body. Agree to it, "All

right, let it be. I will drive into it today." An amazing thing

happens within you.

A phenomenon, that will put the psychiatrists out of jobs. Everybody

can look into this aspect. This is very, very beautiful.

What is the nature of water? Water, when it reaches the ocean, does

not always remain there. It rises high as the clouds and then comes

down again as water.

So are feelings.

Mother's Day 'Love Gifts' from Kingdom Kidz

This is such an awesome team I am in - Kingdom Kidz. I am blessed with this ministry.Unfortunately I lost my camera during the SOW event meeting in April, couldn't take the photos of the time when we were having our meeting, it was so fun, we were all having lunch and yet discussing the programme, everybody throwing out ideas! Ideas that make you laugh, and be crazy! That's how we squeezed out the creativity of all of us!

Vincent Tung was the coordinator for this Mother's Day event, teachers and Daniel were so overwhelmed to see the potential of his leadership being availed, praise the Lord, God is molding His children.

The troops segregated into 4 sectors:
1st sector is mixing, for children 4-5 years old, they will have to break the eggs, and put into mixing bowl., smash it, and mix with mayonnaise

2nd sector is spreading, for children 5-6 years old, spread the mixture on bread and Hup Seng square biscuits.

3rd sector is cutting, for children that are 10-12 years old, cut the bread into 4 small squares.

4th sector is packaging for children from 3-12. Some in origami section, to make a box from folding a rectangle paper, some punch pattern by using craft punch, some decorate the pink box with red hearts and flowers punched out patterns. Then as soon as the 1st and 2nd sections are done, they join in the last part of packaging, fit in the biscuit and bread into box, then wrapping it with white ribbon attach with a label in written "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all. Proverbs 31:29 Happy Mother's Day"

This is an appreciation box, there are meaning lies behind....

Being thankful for mom's Tender Love, she cares for us, takes good care for us, raising up us, loves us - Bread Sandwich

Being thankful for mom's Tough Love, she teaches us, helps us to build good characters, disciplines us when we were wrong - Biscuit Sandwich

Wishing all the mother in the world, Blessed Mother's Day!

It is just HARD, I'm giving up!

I am going crazy if it is still going on...

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I thought it is gonna to be .......... anyhow ... better!

Today proved!

This is way far beyond what I can bear, I have to admit... I failed.

But I am 'Yahoooo!' with the decision I've made.

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....... thinking...... "What God wants to say this time?".......

.............thinking....... "What is HIS feeling?" "................m............... a group of two - disobedient child..."

....................thinking....... "What He will do?" ........

I shouted: "God, you mean so real to me! YOU WERE! YOU ARE! YOU ARE TO BE! Please don't leave me alone!"

You are still the ONE I will trust for the rest of my life!

The Love Language - Time and Attention

Time and Attention

You are a person of Time and Attention. This means you are most touched when people spend time with you and listen when you talk. You enjoy to do the same for others. Time and attention are a great way of communicating, but when someone else you love doesn't necessarily talk the way you do, it doesn't mean they don't love you. What would be their primary love language? The downside of this love language can be people assume you are lazy because you take your time. Try to find out how hey treat you when they try to show love, and try to speak their love language back to them so they feel loved. One last point to mention is that God also communicates in your love language. He uses time and attention, too. He says in the Bible that He loves you, that you are the apple of His eye, and that He wants you to come to Him and talk to Him. He loves you and gave Jesus (God Himself in human form) to bridge the gap caused by the fall of sin through which we cannot fully obey the law He gave us. He made the solution through Jesus, and when accepting Him, you'll accept God Himself, Who loves you, and wants to communicate with you. You are the attention, His focus. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Yes, He is timeless, patient, for ever present, and eternal!

The Love Language - Gifts

Gifts

You are a person of gifts. This means you are most touched when people give you a gift, because it means they were thinking of you when they bought, created or found what they give you. You see life as a gift, and it's things in it!. Gifts and giving is your emotional tool and you will therefore also use this to connect to other people. Gifts are a great way of communicating, but when someone else you love doesn't necessarily talk the way you do, it doesn't mean they don't love you. What would be their primary love language? The downside of giving gifts without talking or doing things for someone else, may come across as a quick fix to escape building a further relationship. Try to put in some effort by finding out what the other person's language is, too. A good conversation or spending time with them can be a gift to them, more precious than box of chocolate! One last point to mention is that God also communicates in your love language. He uses gifts, too. He says in the Bible that He loves you, that you are the apple of His eye, and that He wants you to come to Him and talk to Him. He loves you and gave Jesus (God Himself in human form) to bridge the gap caused by the fall of sin through which we cannot fully obey the law He gave us. He made the solution through Jesus, and when accepting Him, you'll accept God Himself, Who loves you, and wants to communicate with you. Jesus is the greatest Gift, Who gives salvation FREELY to whoever accepts Him. Praise God!